What I learned on my summer vacation...

on the backside of Emerald Bay

Another Tahoe ride has come and gone. And doing it for the second time, I found there were still lessons to be learned. Here are my top 10.

1) Cold rain in your face with a dash of grit can be just like an expensive facial.

2) Even on a bike your feet can get really wet (ie: I could pour water out of my shoes).

3) There is no substitute for sheer determination.

4) When your arse is wet from the spray and the bike seat and you use one of those paper liners on the toilet seat, it will stick all over you and it takes a few minutes to get all the little pieces off your behind. Best to just squat.

5) Stay out of the 'rooster tail' as much as possible.


6) Lucy Duffy, age 78, who began running marathons to raise money for the Leukemia Society to honor her  husband who passed away from leukemia,  and was our inspirational speaker on Friday night, said it best..."finishing is winning".  Thank you Lucy Duffy. (yes, at age 78 she completed the 100 miles)

7) After slowly making it up one of the hills on the way to the lunch stop, I rode by a cheer group. The young man on the end shouted at me, "You are doing this for ME!". God puts the people you really need, in the places you really need them.

8) People are basically good, generous caring beings. I have always believed this and I still believe it no matter what. If I am wearing rose colored glasses, then so be it. I am keeping them on. The CT Chapter of Team in Training raised over $120,000. Nationally the Tahoe event raised 6.8 million!

9) There is a "Whole lotta love" at these events.

10)  Heroes
      a) My heart welled up when I saw on our inspiration dinner table, a letter from Dominique Soucy, with a photo of her and I at the Rockcats game. Her letter summed up what it was like for her to go through being diagnosed with CML at the age of 23, and how she is finding ways to give back now that she is in remission. Christopher Reeve said "a hero is an ordinary individual who finds strength to persevere and endure in spite of overwhelming obstacles."  Dominique, you are the definition of a hero.
      b)  The same goes when I saw Tom Kelley's picture in the opening slide show. Tom, you are my hero as well. The same Christopher Reeve quote applies to you.

      c) Art, you know how much I respect you, and I just love the way you 'show up' on your blue bike, to let me draft off of you, when I need that the most. I am so happy you kicked cancer in the behind and it is an honor to ride with (well, mostly behind) you.  The same Christopher Reeve quote applies to you as well.

Emerald Bay and Lake Tahoe beyond

My thanks to all, especially Coaches Dave and Henry, Jen, Billy, Dominique, Art, Coach Jim, and the entire Tahoe Team!  A special thanks to Deb.... hahahaha "the blessed hills, the blessed rain etc. etc. etc.

And to Jens Voight : Shut up legs!

Southbury

Southbury. The good, the bad and the downright ugly.  This ride, for some reason had me questioning why I was doing this again. I did not make the Southbury ride last year, it was scheduled for a weekend that I had to work. All I heard about from the rest of my team was how tough a ride this was, So this year, I was not doing any jigs when I found that I was not working the weekend of the Southbury ride, and I really was looking for a reason, ANY reason not to go. But, I am nothing if not stubborn, and I don't give up or give in easily, so, I went. Kicking, screaming and whining all the way to Southbury. Now, after the fact, I can say it wasn't all bad, it did have some good points, along with a big dose of ugly.

The good.  The view of "Old Connecticut", rolling pastures, beautiful equestrian properties, estates, farmhouses, rivers, streams and waterfalls filled my heart was really at times, breathtaking. It made me think of the Arlo Guthrie song, City of New Orleans....   All along the southbound odyssey the train pulls out at Kankakee, Rolls along past houses, farms and fields... The Housatonic River meandering along to our left. I kept looking into the woods we were passing to see if I might see one of the many bald eagles that have taken up residence in the area. Farms, beautiful farms, green pastures, old barns, old houses. It really was a beautiful ride, and it really gives a glimpse into Connecticut's history. The views were so different than what I usually see on my daily ride into Hartford for work.

The bad. The weather. This is April, mid April. Come on! Mother Nature are you punking me??? It felt more like November or early December. Cold. 40's at the start and I am not sure the temperature made it into the 50's. Windy. Not breezy, windy. Like Billy said the other day, "how come the weather people are never wrong about the wind?" They can be wrong about the temp, or the rain, but they are never wrong about the wind. And that cold wind made me think it was more like the first of December, not mid April. Cold, bitterly so. It would come up and hit me head on just as I was cresting a hill, and then stay with me as I made my descent.  The every once in a while a gust of cross wind would come up and just about knock me off the bike. At one point there was a little tornado made of old dead leaves that got stirred up. Like I said, more like November or December than April. And then, when it felt like the wind and the cold couldn't get any worse, it started to rain. Thankfully it waited until we were within a couple of miles of the commuter parking lot, and almost done with the ride. By the time we were done, I was cold, and tired, and in dire need of a hot cup of tea,which I got.  Thank you, Billy!


The downright ugly. The hills. While they are an integral part of the scenery, in a car they pose no problem. On a bike???? Different story. We left the commuter lot and started a nice relatively reasonable climb, with a nice downhill attached to it on the other side. One would think that if you go up, you will eventually come down. These hills just seemed to keep going up (and up and up and up).  Now, you might think I am making a mountain our of a molehill (sorry, am tired and a bit punchy), but I can assure you I am not. The official garmin (Daves unit) said we did 4611 feet of elevation gain, some of the hills had an 18% grade  For a ride of only 51 miles that is a lot of climbing. That is about what the Lake Tahoe ride has in 100 miles! I think I conquered it fairly well. I stopped to catch my breath once, which was a good move, except I should have looked for a somewhat flatter spot to stop. It was quite steep at that spot and I had trouble getting going again and landed in the soft sod on the side of the road, with my legs tangled in my bike so that I couldn't get up. Thankfully, I got a helping hand from Jen.  I walked about 10 feet and found a flat-ish driveway and was able to get back on the bike and continue my ascent.  It seemed as though the hills just kept coming and coming, with no relief. Once we were a little over three quarters of the way done, things leveled out and gave us more gentle rolling hills, with ups and downs, and less of the steep grades.

This ride, prepares us for Lake Tahoe. But what the heck am I doing here? On a Saturday??? I didn't have to work! I could have been home, warm and snug with a good book or my recipe box and my oven mitts. But nooooo, I chose to be out in horrible weather, riding up horrible hills (okay, they made for a pretty picture, I will give them that!). Then Jen (who is wise beyond her 30 or so years) said.... we choose to be here, we choose to be doing this. So, if we are walking up a hill, pushing a bike, we will do that with our heads held high. The patients we ride for don't choose to have leukemia, they don't choose their disease. So, with that, I am going to relish the choice I made to do this, to do this for someone else, and in the name of someone else. And,  I am going to give myself a pat on the back for making it up those hills, and maybe a cookie or two.

Inspired

Feeling inspired.. yes INSPIRED :)
Maybe because ever so subtly spring is showing signs of being right around the corner. Even when it is 24 degrees out, it still feels like a warmer 24 degrees than it does when it is 24 degrees in January.
Maybe it is because the Tahoe cycle team had it's first outdoor training last Saturday, and we will be outside riding again this Saturday. Being outside was so refreshing, and man o man did I ever sleep good after the ride (including a nap on Sunday!)
Maybe it is the ESPN video of Jamie Botteon (leukemia survivor) that picked me up. What a great smile that kid has, and what spirit. Wish we could put that in a bottle and sell it.
Maybe it is because I have hit my initial fundraising goal of $3,000, and I plan to exceed that, little by little.

Heck.. maybe it is because I just made a commitment to do yet another 100 mile ride.. this one in Tucson, AZ.. in November.

Whatever the reason, I am not going to sit here and ponder why I am feeling so inspired.. I am just going to enjoy the heck out of it!

Being Bold!

I never thought that I was being bold. That is until the other day, when I was reading the prayer of St. Francis ( often called the Peace Prayer of St. Francis). Yes, I know. Churchy. I am getting churchy. I don't impose my beliefs on anyone, I  just want to lead a good life, and be a good person. And... this one prayer really speaks to me. I can pretty much recall the day in my Catholic elementary school (Blessed Sacrament, on Central Ave, in Albany), when I learned this prayer. And I remember memorizing the words, because back then, if you didn't memorize, Sister Teresa Marie (Sister Teresa Meanie, to me) would come down the row, stop at your desk and startle you with her wooden pointer and call you by last name. Then, you would promptly stand at attention and try not to let her see you shaking as you made your way to the front of the class to let the whole room know that you did not memorize your prayer. So memorize I did! So much that I still remember every word. I may have known the words back in 4th grade, but I didn't fully understand what it all meant. Even now, I still consider myself in the 'learning phase' of life, I am still trying to figure it all out.

The St. Francis prayer asks for strength, the strength to respond to hatred with love, the strength to respond  to sadness with joy, to injury with pardon. You are asking for the strength to respond to someone or something in exactly the opposite way.  You are asking for the strength to give of ourselves to meet the needs of others. Sometimes, as humans we are called upon to bring to our world the opposite of what we find in it. We are asked to treat people the opposite way of how they treat us. Every once in a while, we are asked to turn the world upside down. And, that is a scary business. And, in my opinion, this is quite bold.

My mother would always admonish me when I was being a selfish brat (imagine! me! a selfish brat!), that "it is better to give than to receive". Taking that one step further, in the words of the St. Francis prayer, "it is in giving that we receive", in giving to others we receive peace and blessings a million times over. Yeah. Right.
 Well, yeah. I found it. I saw it, and I felt it. The fundraising, the training, getting ready to go to Tahoe did not prepare me for how much I was going to receive. The support of those around me, and those that were complete strangers really touched my heart. They were thanking me for doing the fundraising and the training, and the ride!  All along, it should have been me thanking them, because I felt like I received what I gave a million times over.
To all of you who have helped with my fundraising  for Tahoe 2010, and 2011 (some of you having done both), thank you for having the strength to give of yourself to meet the needs of others. May you be blessed a million times over!

In case you don't have it memorized, or just need a refresher:

The St. Francis Prayer (or the Peace Prayer of St. Francis)
Lord, make me an instrument of your peace,
Where there is hatred, let me sow love;
where there is injury, pardon;
where there is doubt, faith;
where there is despair, hope;
where there is darkness, light;
where there is sadness, joy;
O Divine Master, grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console;
to be understood as to understand;
to be loved as to love.
For it is in giving that we receive;
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned;
and it is in dying that we are born to eternal life.

Tailwinds,
Karen

Christmas Eve Post

 I think I have this whole Christmas thing figured out. Do all the work early, so when Christmas Eve rolls around you can sit and chill. I am lovin' it. I will cook dinner later on since we won't have family dinner tomorrow because I have to work... and, no, don't feel bad.  It is part of healthcare and I will get time and a half, and hopefully there will be no trauma's. Anyway, back to the Christmas thing. Every year it is the same, the same date, lots of people follow the same traditions, customs, but yet, when it gets here it always seems new. Midnight Mass is always stirring, the stars (if they are out) are a little brighter. Our  hopes for the days to come are maybe a little bit more positive, heck., maybe someday we will really know "Peace on Earth".  Every year, even though Christmas is the same, it is always new exciting and wonderful (as in full of wonder).

Then I started thinking about doing Tahoe again. Will it be as exciting and thrilling as it was last year? Will the dinner be as inspirational? Will I raise as much money? Will I be a better rider? Will I be able to get up the switchbacks faster, do Spooner without stopping a gazillion times to take in the view? Will training be easier? Will I get bored doing the same rides as last year?

Then it hit me! Beginners Mind!  I need my beginners mind! I first learned of Beginners Mind a few years ago in massage school. It made sense to me then, and perhaps it makes even more sense now.

Beginners Mind, or Shoshin (初心) is a Zen Buddhist concept, it means having an attitude or openness, an eagerness, and a lack of preconceived notions when studying a subject.  Even if you are studying at an advanced level, keep your attitude open, see something, experience something as if you have never seen it or experienced it before.

Shunryu Suzuki said it best when he said: In the beginner's mind there are many possibilities, in the expert's mind there are few.


I went down to the cellar and dug out the book from massage school and started to read up on Beginners Mind. I came upon some of the following words, that really put it into perspective for me. Not only in reference to Christmas, riding Tahoe, raising money etc.. but also in reference to starting a New Year.

"So to begin, we must all empty our cups of all the preconceived ideas, concepts, techniques and methods that prevent us from receiving the new. This seems like a simple thing to do, but can be quite difficult in practice. At first we think we are emptying our cups but as we drink from the new knowledge we detect residual tastes of the "old". Sometimes this new mixture can be sweet, like adding honey to tea, but sometimes even a little residue can curdle the whole mix, like adding lemon juice to milk. We must not only empty our cups, but make sure we have a "clean receptacle" so we may taste the "true essence" of the new knowledge". Darren Hansen.

Another aspect of developing the beginners mind revolves around getting rid of the "Been There, Done That" attitude. How many times have you heard that one! Been there, done that, got the T-shirt to prove it. Really now! So, yeah, we have all been there and done that, but did you really see the big picture? Or, did you only see the pieces of the whole?

When it comes to Tahoe, I have been there. I have seen the scenery, ridden the ride. I raised the money. I was inspired and accomplished. I was touched by the number of people out in support of the LLS, and of the number of people that were there in honor or in memory of someone touched by leukemia, lymphoma or myeloma.  When it comes to Tahoe, I have done that. I felt my legs burn getting up the switchbacks, battled the headwind on the way out of Truckee, enjoyed the sandwich at King's Beach and slowly turned the pedals over trying to conquer Spooner and yes, had a scary flat tire on the way down the biggest 'hill' I even want to ride a bike down (thank you very much!).

Yup folks, been there, done that. So this time, I am going to go out there with my cup empty. I am letting go of what last year's ride was like.  Just like this Christmas is a new Christmas. I have that clean receptacle to enjoy this Christmas for what it is, to learn and to experience it with new eyes. I will do the same with Tahoe. I plan on enjoying Tahoe 2011 for what it is, for seeing the big picture, not just the pieces of it I saw last year.I am going to ride Tahoe 2011 (Ambbr 11) with a sense of awe, and a feeling of excitement (much like this Christmas). I will learn or see something new even though I have been there and done that. And.. after my cup is full I will empty it again by drinking deeply and savoring it's wonderful taste.

Enjoy your Christmas with a Beginners Mind.

Peace (hopefully on Earth) and as always .. Tailwinds.
Karen

Pics from the Anniversary Ride :)

Barkhamsted Reservoir

Barkhamsted Reservoir

The long and the short of it... Billy and Keith

Billy and Karen

Pre ride :)

Happy Anniversary Dear Synapse

Bike is officially put away for the winter. Sadness. I miss riding. I really miss being outside.

I guess my last ride, was my last ride (for this year). The Saturday after Thanksgiving was the one year anniversary of my first ride on my new bike, so it seemed only fitting that Bill, Keith and me, would set out and ride the same route we did last year.

That first ride was really special. I had flat pedals, no cages or cleats, I rode in sneakers. I didn't have a bike jacket, I wore one of Tyler's underarmors, a sweatshirt and my "Final Four" windbreaker. I had an old pair of weightlifting gloves that did the job for my hands. I didn't have any real bike shorts, but I did have a pair of knickers with padding that I wore for spin class, so they were what I had to cover my bottom half.

My makeshift bike clothing was only surpassed by my total lack of knowledge about my bike, and biking in general. Bill pulled out his tire pump and asked me if I needed to pump up my tires. My answer... NO! The bike is brand new, I just picked it up from the bike shop the week before, why would I need to pump the tires!?!?!?! I had not yet learned the Team in Training mantra "pump before you ride".

We left the parking area and started out from the parking area in Unionville, and headed out to Collinsville. We stopped at LaSalle Market for tea and muffins, then continued on. The hill on RT 44, heading up 219, going by the turnoff for Ski Sundown, around the Barkhamsted Reservoir, stopping for some pictures, riding back down the other side and back out to 44. We made a second stop at LaSalle and then headed home.

It really struck me how much easier the ride was this year, November 2010, as opposed to November 2009. The hills were easier, I kept up with Bill and Keith (for the most part). I am much more stable on the bike, I know how to shift, I can move over in traffic to take a turn, I can lead a pace line, I know how to draft. And, most importantly, I know how to dress! A lot has changed, and all for the better. What a difference a year makes!

Tailwinds,
Karen